On the road-- periodical hysteria
It's in wide believed，including myself, that complete prediction as well as such and such a kind of eternity being--my favorit to pursuit for life,leading on through perfect choice into absolute freedom,is impossible to make it ,related to the facts of development that histories of all stripes have shed light on.
May them be told some scared other fatal still mortal and doomed,to ascertain how squalid and pedantic am I.
Since all such above in my mind have been a kind certain impossibility.
Especially when I would rather enjoy the process ,from none to own,of access to its finality than only for the original purpose,which in particular seems to be so ambiguous often less than obvious---the very requirement primarily most in a context of undergoing self-imposed hardship so as to strength one's resolve to do sth.
As a flash of instant intreset of intercurrent fleeting，something subliminal,natural-like as well collide against the ambiguous purpose.
Keep on or turn Back？
I once said to a sister at my first year that I want drop out then for my unexpected finding that I Do Not Like the Major.
"Time is the God，"she said then."Man's Mind going back and forth is getting closer around the context during Time’s passing through."
Where a man coming from in original is the very same Where a man Going to in final,but to whom a man being born is never identity with to whom a man being dead.
Man's Mind is changing ineluctably for adaptation of the environmental change,eulogisitically speaking,Developing.
May it be the right.
May it be the change of the prejudice.
May it be the stay and on.
As time going on,it's definitely ture that,as the sister said once, many of my thought have changed as different as between day and night to a good way,including from being attracted by communication,mild attitude to mainland journalism to my acceptance of Carl Marx's theories,and indifferent or somewhat postive attitude to Party-things.
All may it thanks to my major by the consequence of each a piece of Change leading to more social-fitted thought.
Im ,though,not still on its own way.
A number of times I have tried to finish some magazines related in my major，and however, I made it no more than once.
With no fierce refusion Im just on inertial to ignorant everything about it as I did before when I watched TV-series.
Such the sense of Fun when I watched a sort of humorous one just like I watched a general kind of comedy;
also,such of warm when some corporate image-appeal Ads.which promise the pubilic What its owner's responsibility is concerned much about one of the social most focal issues;
such of horrible for which had plotted be scared,
such of laudatory for which had attempted being spectacular beauty.
such and such a sense for which had to be the very same.
Being study four years or so，Im not specialist or even skilled but a fool as a man as a vulgar cheated ,prompted for purchase,proud for famous brand letters.Not to mention would I remember the word "why".
At least,I know myself about When I start to think "why"of sth.,is the very time I begin to interest in sth.
Unfortuntly，never happened，even in my wildest daydreams.
It is said to friends that Im kind a stupid,disability of changing to make my major loved to me and as it just for the access to get final or original purpose.
"may it be my favorit.
may come devoted to its evil.
may turn my mind into the opposite way.
may give up the once certainty of what virtue to hold for my situation requirement.
may ignore the dislike ,the disdainful aspect against its benefit,its wealth for what you need.
may be happy to say what I loathe all along is nothing important,if any ,the distorted pictures in an ass brain."
But all it doesn't go on before I had been a wise man.
Such and such a kind donkey am I,the worst judgement can be.if knowing to be prophet means so much to stand my soul on the ground.
Comparing with labelling as silly,insane is nothing to me.
Intelligence,nowadays with respect to its definition,is no more considered to be a single special part of ability,but many abilities in effective drawing together so as to solve a brand-new situation.
It now refers to the ability of adaptation to the evironment.
Such is the adaptation in varieties of evironment of the situation.
For the most part,the ability to change oneself so as to make more effective use.
But sometimes, the effective adaptation most as change the current ones as find a new environment altogether.
According to the definition of intelligence noted above,it's evident to what I can hold that a person possess the ability of more likely active to a prickly plight than passive.
I can hold this to turn back,can I?
May much more voices,
You coward!
You filthy traitor!
Against the fidelity being the reason I chose to escape ,My heart scream for my loyalty due to my aging parents regardless much more people ever supported me.
I certainly do know.However,if so,I could struggle on my feet in terms of, at least, "impossible is nothing "for my own way.
But how should I deal with the rest if I repeat once again?
It's the tears from some guys under my carpet that fearing，should I do sth else.
Im selfish,indeed.
My heart scream for Hattttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttting the mayjor.It gets harder to control,which would rather to beg than....
Why not the time kill me?
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attttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttting the mayjor.It gets harder to control,which would rather to beg than....
Why not the time kill me?
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